Day 2

It just takes 1 lesson of yoga to turn me into a cynic. I was restless throughout the class, wishing that I had signed up for aerobics or sth more vigourous. I also couldn't avoid looking into that full-wall mirror in front of us that just magnified what I was feeling inside--- ungraceful and inadequate. The teacher led us through an hour of stretching and deep breathing exercies. The motions were simple enough, but I had to keep peeking at the person next to me to see if my poses were correct. Something about the class comprising all female students and a male instructor also rubs me the wrong way. Most of all, that airy-fairy "imagine yourself on a beach" nonsense does not work for me. However, all the ladies on my level are believers and they have signed up for a second time. Why? Since when have I developed such an uncanny tendency to detract value from things? This deserves some reflection. Either that or I need to reflect on why I've succumbed to peer pressure and signed up for 8 lessons.

Dad made a funny judgement that day. He said that the reason why I didn't hold the chopsticks the right way was because I didn't practice livelong learning. If I'm a livelong learner, I'll correct the way I hold chopsticks. Omg! Being a smart-aleck I rebuked that if so he shld use the blade shaver instead of the battery-operated one. But in retrospection, maybe there's some truth in it. Some day.....some day.... I shall try to master the art of holding chopsticks the right way.

The start of this year was pretty only briefly. For the past 2 weeks I've been sloughing like an Ox, even before cny. I did a lot of work, but still cld not do everything. My RO had to step in to finish what he assigned to me. This is kind of demoralizing because I think I did a lot of background work that went unnoticed. He didn't consult me but started everything afresh. Now I'm in regret that I cut down the no. of trips I make to his office. My 6mth appraisal is still pending, this is kind of scary...

It has been a depressing week, LY's away, OT every other day, missed my jog, lousy weather...