Day 10

Just came back from the supermarket. A bit irritated cos i was bullied by an old lady there. The auntie jumped the queue and on purpose. She was inching at 90-deg towards the queue and when she finally she stood right in front of me, she turned towards her back towards me to face the cashier and averted my 'stare'. OMG.... i don't quite like it when old ppl take advantage of being old and think that ppl will close one eye to whatever they do. I know at least my grandmother doesn't do that! I was doing a mental CBA on whether it'll be more efficient to let an elderly person go first or a younger one.....if i let the older person go first maybe it'll save her the "pain and suffering" she has to endure while queuing. But then since she doesn't have to work or have tons of modules to study, her time is probably worth less than the young person, me, so I shld go first. Sounds mean, but true.

I'm not being petty. I'd be most willing to let her jump the queue if she'd just asked in a kindly way and stated that maybe her legs were weak and cannot stand for long (my grandmother has this sort of problem), not just pretend that she has the right of way....

Anw maybe i was just being irritable just now because of the weather and a tough cba paper. Had lunch with Pearl and the CBA ppl and we were so stressed from the paper that we'd to sit in silence for a while to catch out breaths before we cld eat anything. Then I was baked at the com ctr bus stop while waiting for dad to pick me. Although the first paper was bad (i was panicking and got confused over the diagrams) i still feel glad today, probably because i'm finally in the game, no more waiting and waiting for the dreaded.....haha. Told Pearl that if today was bad, due to reversion to the mean, we'll do better tmr!

Very glad that i've dad to send me to sch for my 9am paper and reach at 8am. He has been doing so for the past 8 semesters which makes me feel very lucky. Mum deserves credit too for picking Leng & I up ytd and for preparing lotsa food supplements ever since we began our study week. I can't believe my arsenal of junk food this time round. I got Chipsmore, Liang got me Lemon warheads and tubes of Mentols, LY shared his butter cookies. I can't believe it too that I made an exception to go all the way to IMM to buy sushi & old chang kee on Sat cos the school ran out of it! Been trying to psycho myself that this is only temporary gluttony and I need breaks to prevent burnout. That's why i'm blogging now. Another morale boost after checking my mail. The only senior counsel i know said "good suggestions" =) It feels good cos he's this huge authoritative figure who works in an organisation that most econs students can only dream to work for, although he says he's only a shoe polisher for even higher ppl there. Sometimes i wish i were a shoe polisher too.....

Many encouragements hv been coming in, most said it's the last lap, jiayou! I've been too lazy to msg my well wishes to friends this sem so i'll do it here. To those who I always msg, Jon, Cat, WH etc. Jiayou to you guys too! All the best!