Day 22

Saturday is a good day to blog cos saturdays i come bk fr mwh. Today we went to ECP. Not as fun as i'd hope it'll be cos the elderly r just not as excited as us abt gg to the beach. Well, we did end up playing 'monkey' there with a few residents-- only 4 volunteers and 2 residents actually, as the only girl i felt quite extra but the resident who was the most "on" was whom i was assigned to, so i was resigned to play. We're a bunch of self-entertainers ^^.

Then when 1 resident wanted to go to the toilet and his volunteer was a girl, I went to ask another guy to go assist. Only later then i realised he's a new volunteer! and I was like oh gosh, what if he decides not to come again?! Later I heard 1 resident wet himself....I wonder if it's the same one....oh no...oh no....my fault....Feel quite bad again cos i cldn't play chess with another resident today as he wasn't allowed to go. He called me on my mobile at the end of the session n ask me whether i wanted to stay bk to play. However as the gang was gg out for dinner i said no. Feel bad cos i got a feeling he was looking fwd to it + someone today commented that i got A* for 爱心... Oh no....I think i certainly don't deserve the honour... Leng also said when she dropped me she observed that i shook hands with 1 of the resident patronizingly... i really got to find back my sincerity.....

Project work worries instilled by SMin today-- 5 litres

Day 21

Ahhhhhh.......so happy today. Just came back and whipped up a plate of char kuay tiao for myself. Listening to Enya now in air-con comfort, what a life!

Why so ecstatic today? I just read an email from my Cambodian friend! Did you know they continue to send emails and sms even until now? *so touched* Anyway it was a joke in her email that tickled me. In verbatim, she said, "DO you know your 1 smile can make 100 peoples die,so you can decrease this over population ,so you please keep on smiling ."

When I first read it i thought why would people die? why would i want to smile when I'm in fact killing 100 people? Why is she instigating me to be a murderer? I had to read it twice to understand: She actually meant it as a complement. That a smile is dazzling and I shld smile often. Haha

This is one very interesting girl. I remember when i was giving Sci lessons with J at the camp, we asked a qn: why does a cook egg spin but not the raw egg? All the other students kept silent but this intellegent girl volunteered,

" Because the raw egg scared to die"... Muhahaah

Day 20

i want

by understanding myself

to understand others

i want to be all that

i am capable of becoming

Katherine Mansfield

Day 19

Despair, dejected, deflated..and what hv you. It's official, i've topped the class from the bottom. Can't laugh it off anymore. I want to get that bonus grade he said he'd give. Strive for most improved pupil...can i do it? I think I shld sign up for more open-book exams, my memory is only able to retain 65% of the stuff usually and if i panic during the test (there's nt really an if since i do it all the time)...65% of it remains. I'm able to understand the solutions when i read them but to regurgitate and prove them during the test is beyond me. Think I didn't study hard enough, it's all my fault.

Others: Last wed, was studying in CL with WH and had lunch with 1 unlikely person , MZ who's my pri-sch ex-classmate. "It's a small world afterall...."

Today: I played chess at mwh with an old man. 1-1. He's arranged to 'trash' me several more times over the nx few weeks.