Day 33

Saturday was nvac appreciation dinner. The dinner was passable, I barely remember what we ate. Only remember there were a lot of candies being passed around and I stopped to check if the Dove chocolates were made in China. I've some Dove chocs sitting on my office table for weeks and I cldn't decide whether to risk getting melamine poisoning or throw the chocs away. For the record, the box said they were not made in China. I decided this fact cld be extended to those Dove chocs in the office too so they didn't land up in the bin. I'm just not for wasting food.

Was in anticipation for lunch with Jon and LY at XinWang Hong Kong Cafe (Anchorpoint) that day since Jon promised a bdae treat. And besides we haven't met each other for quite some time. My pockets were supposed to be safe since it was a treat, yet, I was cajoled by the Chinese waitress to sign up for membership in exchange for a bottle of red wine and Tiger beer. With such an attractive carrot dangling, I had no choice but to bite.

Part of the deal was to spend more $40 (more than we intended), so I splurged on a caramel fresh toast. Caramel!!! I was on a high all through the aftn MWH session. Thought I shld mentioned this: after the session Jon reflected that actually the 中国妹 was rather cute. *Hai* Some ppl 死性难改....tsk, tsk, tsk.....hahaha

Jam further made my day when she presented her homemade muffins as a birthday gift. It came complete with box, bow and card! It's like omg....no one has ever baked for me! Appreciated the effort put in =]

The best takeaway from the Apprecation dinner was the exhilaration in doing starjumps and to play "Chase" on the wonderfully green lawn in Hort Park. Some ppl actually forgot how to play "Chase", can you imagine?!

We didn't forget to have fun on our bus ride back either. Jon, LY and I struggled to open the Tiger beer bottle. We tried means and ways to open it without a bottle opener. Eventually 巾帼不然须眉, I managed to open it with a pair of scissors and the three of us shared the warm beer. There was very little to go around. Come to think of it, 330ml /3, each of us actually drank only 110ml. Wonder why we were so thrilled....*L*

Day 32

Close to 3 months on the job and I've done some of the THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER DO ON THE JOB:

1. Spell your boss' name wrongly and have him point it out to you
2. Spam all the higher management's email such that their mail quota is exceeded and their PAs start calling
3. Provide the wrong tel no. and have all agencies trying to get you call a no. that's not in use
   
4. Tell your boss he is too much of a purist and his approach is impractical
5. Snub your director when she says Good Morning to you because you're still in a morning daze
6. When you boss tells you he thinks the figures you generate are wrong, tell him that you're absolutely sure it's 100% correct such that he gives up asking you and decides to regenerate it himself
7. Put on the line your credibility with the ministry higher up half the time
   
8. Apply for so many positions in the ministry higher up that when you go for meetings for with your bosses, they are so amused because there is no need for introductions since everyone knows you

I think there were more faux pas but I can't remember them now. Fortunately my boss is a very good-natured man and is just mildly amused by all the above.

Day 31

I don't think the results of the personality tests are accurate. Did them out of sheer boredom and depression. But the results for the third test is stunning. I wonder how many people out there are "too complicated".

I went for personality tests for my present job as well. On the 2nd interview, the CE informed me that I'm the only one in the whole organisation that has confused the computer. Apparently the computer could not generate a personal profile for me. They told me they could not understand why but since the personality test was only to supplement the recruitment process, I got hired anyway.

The funny thing is dumb people like me happily and diligently put in 85% of thought into choosing which blanks on the OAS to shade. And when the results come out....."plunk".....They don't even tell you "sorry to disappoint". They tell you "you're too complicated". This is unacceptable.

Personality tests

Get to know yourself better: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

The Real You: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Who is your dream guy: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test64.aspx

Here is the analysis:

According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis. Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct.

Shoot, not again.................

Day 30

10 mins ago, I met the most remarkable gentleman in my office bldg. This man greeted everybody he met, even those who didn't knew him (incl me). He also *gasped* stood outside the lift door holding it open for the ladies to go in first before entering himself. This man works on the 18th floor, everyone from the receptionist to the cleaning lady knows him. They called him "老板/boss". He looks like a very happy man. If I had a boss like that I think I'll be extremely lucky. The nx time I see him I must remember to introduce myself!

hmm....think this sounds like a post written by some primary sch kid....

Day 29

I've quite given up on following the news on the political turmoil and successions etc. Just these couple of years there've been so many changes in government all over the world. I ever tried creating a list of the more notable world leaders but then very soon my list became obsolete. So there, I've given up. Just give me what happened in the end....what happens in between I don't want to know. I know Mum's with me on this cos I saw her scan through the newspp headlines only in the morning. My heart goes out to those journalists who hv to write lengthy news reports, really hope there are ppl out there who follow what they write even though we don't. Haha. Lazy ppl like us rely more on the radio or tvmobile for news updates.

There was talk over lunch that our small red dot shld be very worried that all our neighbours are experiencing problems. Why aren't we worried? Perhaps we are that's why we hv our massive displays by the NAF every at NDP. But can you believe we're celebrating our paralymic gold when the whole sea is all the rage abt Anwar and Somchai Wongsawat.

A: What if our neighbours develop the green-eye syndrome? Does Singapore have enough ammunition to stand up to them?

B: That's why we stock up.

C: Don't worry, the Indonesians can have their parangs, the Msians can have their black magic, Thais can have their vodoos, Singaporeans only need their passports.

To me it's not so much an issue whether we'll leave when war comes. To me, war is a remote possibility. Our vulnerability is "understandably" overhyped by the govt.

Just yest I was at a mtg and someone pointed out that one idea that was floating about came about because of one minister's speech. This idea it turns out has been floating around for sometime. I was wondering isn't "floating"= "driftwood"? Everyone's practicing taichi here? Did not dare breathe to anyone that I had treated that particular speech/presentation with reverence, memorised most of the stuff and used the arguements as key points in my answers for the job interviews and tests. Uh-oh....

Day 28

Our neighbour is our window into the rich men's world. Their home cooked food is our restaurant fare, their parties our Food Fest. I finally undestand why one of my girlfriends can go around declaring she's a taitai wannabe. She's one with foresight. Can you be faulted for wanting to live a life like that? Or put another way, can your be faulted for not wanting to live a life of complaining about rising food prices, haggling over the price of fish, eating leftovers three meals a day, walking a few km to buy that one item on sale at Shop&Save because it's a few cents more expensive at ntuc?

I thought of how commonly people will bring up the plight of the African kids and go into diatribe about food wasting, lavish living etc. Sour grapes argument aside, I feel that it's natural for human beings to want better for themselves. If you are rich and successful, why would you want to scrimp and be hard on yourself. Remember the story of Scrooge?

Recently I started working and I realised that it's actually essential and beneficial to reward oneself. You need not eat lavishly for all three meals a day, but neither need you eat poorly for all three meals. Out of three meals, one hearty meal will give you enough oomph for the day. It's a little like the Joy Luck Club where the ladies celebrate with their "luxurious" food items during the war. I want to feel that I'm lucky too. S. Levitt rightly identified in Freakonomics that everyone is driven by incentives and perks. I'm not wasting food, I'm just incentivising myself so that I can go further.

You can be symphathatic towards the Third World plight too if you're rich. In fact, you can be more symphathatic because you're in a better person to help them. See those rich taitai clubs? You can still live a relatively good life after approportioning a part of your wealth to help others. Of course you can always do more, if you give up that buffet at Meritus Mandarin you can feed 100 more kids, but I don't have the aptitude or inclination to become a missionary. From the bottom of my heart, I want to better the lives of a few others, but I'm not looking to be Father/Mother of Africa. There's just so much that you can do.

Besides reinstilling in me the motivation to work hard, my neighbours' galavanting ways have also put me back in perspective about my cooking skills. I always thought being able to cook homemade dishes put me a teeny-weeny notch higher than my peers who cannot. But when I saw my neighbours homemade dishes, my first instinct was to take out my camera and snap away. Only then did I realise how "country" I was =/

To my neighbours for their 'enlightening' meal.~

Day 27

If Midas could turn any object to gold, you can turn any happiness to sorrow. Quit playing. Unless you've tons of money to burn, you'll burn your fingers. And burning your fingers is the least of it cos everyday your family lives as if they're burning in hell. As if ruining your own life is not enough, you've to ruin everyone else's life. You can have nice cosy bbqs in the porch but nothing can mask the fact that the family is nothing more than dsyfunctional. We live day by day believing that it takes more than that to bring us down. Is it?

Anyone in your position would have woken up and tried to mend things. If you're bad at something, do something else and stop making what you're bad at so glaring, even if it takes pretending so be it. Stop hovering!

Day 26

Had a satisfying bbq this evening after it just rained. The electric grill is pretty good stuff...no mess from the charcoal but the wait for the food was longer.

Grandma came briefly today accompanied by the maid. Actually this morning I was over at her place to give piano lessons to the boys but they had forgotten to inform me that they were in KL so it was a wasted trip. Good thing was I got to accompany Mum, Leng and Leong to ntuc and the wet market. I've not been to the wet market for quite some time ever since piano became on Sunday mornings, which is the only time mum goes to the market. Recognised a few of the stall owners that she has been patronising ever since we were kids but every one seems to have aged. I feel that the recession has been taking a toil on everybody... I keep hearing them say "everything is so expensive nowadays"... This kind of statement grips you more strongly when you're in the heartlands.

Well back to the maid. I feel that my family just don't know how to handle maids. Nobody in the family has had one so it feels awkard when somebody suddenly has one. I sense a bit of hostility towards a foreign person in the household yet at the same time it's really strange cos nobody asks her to do anything! I'm not advocating that we shld order her to do everything and exploit her for our money's worth or anything. But I don't see a point in paying for a maid to stay with you and yet not asking her to do anything. Grandma is too nice, she was hired to help relieve her in doing the household chores but I still see her cooking, doing the marketing etc. when she can just ask the maid to do it! Grandma says it's because the maid can't cook well. And another reason is that the old folks will "slow down" if they don't do anything. But i just don't like to see grandma working hard when the maid is not.

I think people shld be nice to their maids, not be hostile twds them, afterall they left their families behind to come work for us, it's a terrible thing. But don't be the maid to your maid!

Day 25

I counted the average age of the people in my department- 39! As compared to my friends in other ministries and agencies, I think my department is the oldest. I'm in corporate planning now, and i think the head was right at the interview, the job fit is quite good. I'd have felt out of place in a slacker department. At CP, you need to know everything under the sun abt the organisation. It's not abt specialization, it's about the macro pic. Since i'm the kind of person who wants to cover all the bases, I guess the job suits me. Initially i wanted to start higher, in the ministry above us, but i guess i was too greedy. Coincidentally here i've been tasked to staff the mtgs with that ministry so i'll be seeing a lot of those ppl who interviewed me lol. Over there i was told firefighting formed the bulk of the work, here my boss told me from day 1 that he did not like firefighting and prefers to look ahead, afterall what's CP without the P? I'm thankful for that because i realised how i cld've languished if i were to do firefighting. Of course there are some parts of the job here that i didn't expect, but i did ask for a challenging job.

There are many old-timers here who've worked more than 10 years, my buddy is one. Apparently he's the buddy of everyone new in the dept cos he's been ard for so long. It's interesting to go lunch with these people beacuse they can really EAT. For example, we went to Queensway last week and just for lunch alone, we had claypot laksa, avocado juice, fruit plate and egg tarts. Then we also went to Liang Court another day for Shabu Shabu Ramien and just yesterday it was Earle's Swensons for deparment lunch. But that's the final straw, i've resolved after Liang Court to find new eating partners and cheaper eating places cos i can't afford to eat like that the whole time.

Day 24

Fell down abt 3 weeks ago after watching Dark Knight (nus guild hse). I haven't fell down for so long that i forgot how it was like to do so. You don't feel the pain right after the fall, just numbness and perhaps a bit of shock, which gives you enough time brace yourself to walk out of the theatre. You think you're alright but wait until the agony comes, then inconvenience....and after a few weeks, the scars. I suppose it was a combination of reasons that I fell, but Leng brought up a very good pt, "WWIATF?"

I cannot decide if i've "settled in" at my workplace. A part of me don't want to "settle in", just want to bum around. How can there be "settling in" when u're expected to do OT in your 1st week on the job? How can you prevent putting urself in a comfort zone and "settle in" at the same time? Is it just me who can't draw the line or is the world made up of too many grey parts?

There's a whole new meaning to "weekends" too once you start work. Played basketball with Huang Di on Sat, went to Settlers and Breeks (played bridge) on Sun with the Econs gang. It was fun, but these days there are just too many ppl around me who've been making me feel that leisure is not sth i'm entitled to. =[

Day 23- Graduation

I've Graduated!

'Graduation' embodies so much- 20 years of hardwork, from tingxie in pri sch, to differentiation in sec sch, to kinematics in jc and macroeconomics in uni.

Someone gave it a funky name Commencement instead of Convocation (Mum and Dad kept insisting that's what they used to call it in the past) because it marked the beginning of a new journey, not the end of one.

This year's theme was “Celebrating Excellence”, and I was picked to attend the main ceremony on 7 July where i got to shake Nathan's hand. Think i wasted the golden opportunity though. I was so fully concentrated on walking carefully so that the gown wldn't flare at the knees that I forgot to smile and look at the camera. The president was looking so serious too. He probably thought "this girl looking so serious, i shld look serious too"...and there!...all the joy there was supposed to be on this joyous occasion dissipated in that brevity I looked stern on stage. Unfortunately there's no more chance for me to change things...

I was very lucky to attend Commencement 08 as a graduand, a student assistant (scala) and an audience. Of the 3, being an audience was the best because you get to dress prettily, enjoy the celebrative atmosphere while basking in someone else's glory, not yours i.e. no anxiety on your part. After 1 week of 3-times-a-day ceremonies, I became so familar with not only the protocol but also the buffet table. =D

And hmm....I'm starting work tmr at a stat board. My first job! Not my dream ministry but I think I'll make the best of every path opened to me. I believe things will pan out well.

“The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet.”

Day 22

My third Juxtapose camp! This time i was a slacky a.ogl., nobody knew i was a.ogl except our ogl. After last year's tiring experience as progs head, this time I only wanted to go there to enjoy the games, and leave nus with a gd memory of the jux camp. Was a gd thing cos if i hadn't made the decision to go down, i'd hv missed out on being in the most wacky OG ever! Our Huang Di family was the most fantastic-- fashionably late because we took too many 'shortcuts' but our camaradie was the envy of all the other groups. We played urban warfare like G.I.Joes, danced the best and most coordinated bamboo dance like production line workers, ruled the ultimate frisbee games, put up an absurb performance of a dysfunctional royal family, and even spilled intimate details of our toileting habits.....

http://huangdijiadao.blogspot.com/

Day 21 Picnic at MacRitchie!!

Day 20

I'm drowning my sorrows with MariGold Blueberry Yogurt now because a good friend failed to inform me that there was a gathering today. It doesn't feel good inside....On the bright side, i met this econs girl at Bank M today and also met Eugene from icomp. She hazarded a guess that we were from odac but in actuality we were from the slackest cca ard. I'm glad my figure still doesn't give away that i've not been exercising for centuries.

Day 19

Went back to sch today to collect my commencement gown. Before this, I wasn't at all excited abt graduation, but when I went home, put on the gown for my parents to see....suddenly I felt washed over by achievement. Was reminded that I'd studied for close to 20 years for this day. It's not just 4 years in NUS, it's the entire journey that counts.

I thought gown collection was a fuss-free pick-up-and-go affair. What I didn't expect was that we'd to go through the maze through the MPSH from gown collection to the booths promoting plagues, studio portraits, memorabilia plushtoys, alumni donations etc. Commencement is such a good way to make money.

I signed up for the on-stage photoshots, hope they send me the 2 photos this time round. Back in Cedar i signed up and paid for the same thing during the grad cermony but the photos nv came. Atrocious memory!....or rather the lack of it. Dad's camera was blocked by someone's head so I had no photos of sec sch graduation. Bleah...

Day 18

I love my dad.... today's father's day but instead of me doing sth for him, he did sth for me! Knowing that I always use the laptop in bed, "dangerously" sharing the adapter with the aircon, he installed an additional socket near my bed. Think most dads will set the standard for their girls' potential date: My dad does everything DIY, that's why I can't stand guys who mess up when they hv to do things DIY.

Worked like a dog today....finally the last day of roadshow and we hit 77, twice our target. Think Zac was pleased, he wanted to close at 65.

Day 17

Eww....another old man asked me for my tel no. and to drink kopi again....eww.....Met him as I was walking to amk hub this morning.

It is World Blood Donor Day today and I given complimentary tickets to the Zoo. It was reasonably fun, but unreasonably sweaty experience. Abt 4500 blood donors were invited so it was really packed. I think I go to the zoo more often than many ppl of my age do haha, so i can tell which exhibits are new and which hv been taken away. Cldn't find the golden lion tamarines anymore, Ah Meng's gone, plus of course the penguin enclosure was gone as the ST had reported. Think I missed the giant tortises too. *Hai* Good thing the giraffes were still there....

Had Muturbak at The Prata House along Thomson Rd for lunch. Cldn't help comparing it to Mr Prata. Although this was crispier and the curry was less oily, it was less tasty, I still prefer the Clementi's which just has that "wow" factor in it.

Day 16

my soles ache like hell....from roadshow mania. =(

Went for 10 hr assessment centre at mfa on wed, a mentally draining experience. Feel dumb because i got lost while walking out to the main road. Ended up on Dempsy Hill, completely in the middle of nowhere. Having to tread all the in heels made everything worse.

Was so tired from standing all day long already yet I stayed up last night to research on ASEAN, APEC, LA, WTO....blah blah blah for the interview. But they didn't ask any technical qns at all and for waiting 20min, the interview was barely 5min. *glup*

~does the length of the interview reflect my chances?~

Day 15

Snoozed all the way from 0730 to 0815 today. Didn't want to get out of bed but I had to......had to go get JX's cake before the session today. One more reason was that I had to have that 2nd bowl of soya-barley for breakfast. Haha that's why I was late to meet Jon. But as usual, he was gracious to wait and to help do the "extra-strenuous" task of carry the cake.

It was a wonderful lunch outing with the residents today because he was such a hyperactive resident. It was like he had his own photo shoot and I was his beck-and-call assistant. I must try to get that photo with his arms around my shoulder lol.... so hilarious.... he directs the photographer! He enjoys attention and everyone was willing to provide that attention, so we were all amused. But it was terrible that JX and Jon commented that it was the first time they saw me so fierce when we got them to buy food. So embarrassing...=p But I'd to do it mah, he wasn't listening, didn't want to buy food and was a handful trying to direct the other residents too and chat up all the stall owners....*sigh*.... I even had to open a drain cover to retrieve a coin he dropped....

But it was worthwhile, cos i know he had a good time. He even remembered my name at the end of it all. I'm just sorry that I didn't pay enough attention. He was struggling to eat the noodles but I didn't realised until he finished it and then told the cleaner who collected the bowls that nx time they'd to cut the noodles. I know that the cleaner didn't get it but I got it.