Day 40

Been thinking abt my latestmost employment, questioning why I took it. I'm not particularly proud of this job, the less ppl who knew of it the better. Firstly I hv to wear a totally oversized non-flattering t-shirt and cap cos they ran out of size S. It's not nice to start your day dressed like a dud, not at all. Secondly, I'm allergic to carbon. I forgot that when I signed on the contract. After giving out all the papers, my hands are black with the carbon and I hv to be extremely careful not to touch other parts of my body lest I break out in rashes. What a pain...

But I know the true reason why I took the job. I know why I subjected myself to in exchange for a pittance:

I wanted to wake up early.

Ever since last sem when I was rid of 8am lectures, I began waking at 8-8.30...waste of time when I cld hv accomplish more out of bed early. Furthermore, my habitual tardiness is in need of a cure. Even though most of the time ppl don't mind me being late for meetings, and Dad ferries me when I'm late, I mind.

Waking up late is a form of decadence, and I intend to rid myself of it. With this job, I wake at 6am.

Today is Vesak day and I'm chillin' at home. Last night I went out with WH, D and XX to Spizza and GV to watch Pirates. The show was a letdown, I won't comment further. I wanted to join them at Geylang for supper but I cldn't. Cinderella has to get back by 12 and so does Cyberella. Not exactly 12 but not too late either. If I stay out too late there are no buses to take me home. Last night for example I had to walk abt 1k from the main rd all alone because all the last bus had gone. This has happened to me pretty often recently and it's always a gamble of sorts to try to beat the system, racking your brains on which buses to hop on and which busstops to alight cos the last bus may have already left... just so I can get myself nearest to home and minimize the distance I have to walk back. Walking is mandatory already, I realised it cannot be avoided.

Day 39

Third day at work today and deeply insulted. This freaky guy slipped me a piece of paper with his name and telephone no. Excuse me? I'm not that sort of gal. I noticed this queer fella since the first day....always looking at me in a weird manner that gives me the creeps. I think he belongs to imh. This reminded me of the incident i had a wk ago when i was doing some sort of tele-marketing (but not quite). This guy asked me to msg him says he has his own company and needs temp staff. It sounded like a decent enough proposal so I did saying that I wld prob not take the job cos it's at Tampines but i cld recommend my friends. Then he msged, "Are they as good as you?"...also "pls don't tell XXX (the person I was wkg for) as it is not nice since you're wkg for them". I've asked a male friend he says it sounds ok. I asked a female friend too. Looks like girls are more sensitive. These 2 statement did not go down well with me. Reason 1) This guy hasn't met me so how does he know I'm good? Does he mean I sound professional over the phone? 2) Don't tell the boss. The reason he gave was reasonable. But it may also mean pls keep this to yourself cos this is bootleg.

Hmm...maybe I've been watching too much of CrimeWatch and GetReal. But hello? I'm sure I don't sound like a hooker over the phone. A friend recently told me I sound sweet on the phone and I want to believe that!

Day 38

As I squatted in the little corner of the pet shop, using the net to scoop the fish up, I felt like a little girl again. They weren't free to go to the pet shop with me, so I was given the liberty to choose the 4 fish. It has been ages since I stepped into the pet shop. The same shop, I remember that we used to go there every weekend while waiting for Mum do the marketing. Since when this tradition had stopped, I have no idea... looking at the shop owner I realised how much he and his wife has aged since I last saw them. Human interaction is a funny thing, there are so many ppl you rub shoulders with everyday, most of the time we overlook each other but when you slow down and take a 2nd look, you realise these are the ppl who have rub shoulders with you not just once but many many times until they hv already secured a space in that "people I know" hallway of fame in your head. Hmm....why do i feel so nostalgic today?

"you asked if i remember you....of course i do. you from 2 weeks ago whose ingenuity impressed. i was just....tongue-tied."

Day 37

The day before I played badminton with Leng in the gdn, then the behind auntie came and commented offhand that she put on weight and that Liang was 'short+dark+fat'...er the image that came to my mind was a little brown piggy bank. Lol. It's always so amusing talking to her. Always cranky but it's gd that we're all used to it already :D

Went to play badminton with some of the mwh ppl at Yuhua CC last evening. Great working out session. When i walked in they said i looked like a pro....haha ya, "look" only they got that right =p I couldn't manage a proper serve, cld only hit the shuttlecock as it came. I'm still being trained by Meng who has been an extremely patient coach for the past few sessions we've had together. Really thankful for those sessions cos i think it's more effective than playing with Liang...who most of the time just wants to show off...haha. Anyway, because everytime we only play in the garden, it was the first time yest I played doubles so it was sth new...I think because of that my serve cld only go straight and not the opposite box. Anyways, gd game, hope to have more such sessions. The work out made me feel more energetic.

Day 36

Have been wkg for 2.5 days part-time now, data entry. Today's my last day and i'm slacking in the office becos the boss is Not Around. Never thought i'd take up this job, since it's only $5/hr...but it was in TP and i was super bored at home, so cldn't resist. Turns out not too bad, EVERY time the boss comes ard i'm doing sth other than what I'm supposed to do but he turns a blind eye. Pays me for lunch hour too, really nice. So....not too bad afterall. Haha.


Gave YJ piano yesterday cos Leng didn't want to take him and pretended to sleep. I didn't hv any gd excuse to refuse so I took him. (I can't lie...)There's some truth in what HY once said, "you're a witch teacher." lol. Yea, I don't see myself emphatizing with them. These poor little ones, after an hour of tution/piano often complain there hands are tired and engage in a display of "wringing" their hands. But I'll only laugh it off and make them carry on. It's not really that I don't want to give them a break, but what will their parents think right? when at the end of the day they check how much wk we've accomplished that day? or they come into the room and see me+the kids all having a chat session and not doing wk? I don't think I hv the mettle to handle such embarrassing situations....

Day 35

Yesterday evening I implemented a new mtg procedure for prog com mtg. It went very efficiently, settled many things. Gd going. Then we went to recee the campus for venues for fright night. I didn't know the sch had so many secret tunnels/corners to explore. It was like some adventure hunt, led by Je, our chief recee =) Most of the places didn't really scare me even if it was dark cos we were in a large group of 10.... all but one.

We were in engin taking the lift to the rooftop. Nim & LY were held up, so Je told us to go up 1st. 10-3 =7. Odd number....No good. When the door opened, we saw just an dark empty room, a bit damp, which led to the rooftop. Since one glance was all it took to see the whole room, we didn't step out of the lift. I was the one nearest the lift buttons so I pressed "1" and "Close". The door closed but it did not go down.

And then, the door opened.....Once again, the dark empty room opened in front of us and a gust of cold wind blew in. OMG, i was sure everyone in the lift was spooked! I was stunned for a while too. Then I jabbed the "Close" button repeatedly and the lift took us down.

A case of lift malfunction? I told Meng and he said we shouldn't have disregarded the Odd number rule. He says it's one of the most important rules to follow for fright night. We don't want 1 person more/less. Can't agree more, I think I won't dare challenge it again anytime soon especially since i've had 2 spooky incidents in the span of 1.5 months.

Day 34

Hooray, went to the blood bank today. It took so fast, just 7 minutes to draw 450ml of blood from you. Plus you get a cool funky bandage. I champion that everyone shld go donate blood. Woo hoo!~

Poem by e.e.cummings

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me,i and
my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands

e.e.cummings

Day 33

Went out with the girls today to Bakerzin Raffles City for lunch. It was supposed to be a high tea session, at least the girls told me....theme was "tai tai" style. I think we didn't really pull it off successfully. But we managed a "cool chic" style so i think it was ok....

Day 32

Camp mtg yest and then alumni mtg at Foong Seng were depressing. It just reminded me of all the things that I have to do during the hols. Today I got a call from the law firm tt i went for an interview on Tues. cheapskates who offered only $6 per hr....ey, that's lower than the civil svc rate....and much lower than what i got at CF. Not a big enough incentive to pull me away from doing all the camp stuff.

Went for mwh bbq on Tues at West Coast. Took the chance to recee the place for Fright Night....not scary at all, so it's out. The bbq turned out fine if not for YF who came up with all the riddles & games for us to play. Glad for the invitation & those who organised it.

Day 31

Finally brought chocolates to mwh yest. The resident agreed to share it with everybody so everyone had sth to be happy about:) A pity the turnout rate wasn't good so I ended up being the only one picking the bowling pins & balls. As a consequence my legs are aching today....I so need to exercise more.

Thks to LY for helping me burn all the movies and anime, I finally watched up till DN ep.29. And got more stuff to keep me occupied though the week!

Day 30

NVAC post-exam dinner took place at Seoul Garden at Ngee Ann today. It didn't turn out as bad as expected since most of the ppl who went were the "old ppl" whom i'm familar with. I think we all enjoyed the dinner very much...though i'm sure steamboat dinners always hv their repercussions... We even attempted to take a walk after dinner which did not go further than the Ngee Ann entrance, but I'd say it was a good bonding session.

Day 29

1st day of the break yest. Was supposed to discuss mc stuff over lunch with tim yest. As usual he was so late n lunch took place at 2pm sim lim sq. After we shopped for a portable disk drive. gosh, he bought a 120gb one at $130. For the same px last last yr, I only got a 40gb one and it has been in cold storage since because the connection is faulty....not worth it at all.

Knew tt was a wrong choice to stay so long! Was planning to go back to change out of the miniskirt then go for the ycm mtg at 7pm. Felt like a freak at the mtg! Dressed so inappropriately n had to do presentation in heels somemore... i'm nv gg to blend in with the grp like tt....=(

We also went to ps to service my phone. Lost my patience with the counter staff there which made me feel so guilty after that. Also don't know if it was lunch or the ice-cream i had from the roadside stall....now my stomach is in disagreement with me.

Not a good 1st day at all.